Trival Points to make....

Okay, I got a little bit more added to the blog, but there are still a few items to go....
I finally found the chair to use with part of the display for the quilt, but I have not photographed it set up at this time.

I have a baby made out of clay that also sits on the rug which is in progress in the studio...I am working on the surface appearance at this time.  The photo is prior to being fired at all and looks completely different.

I am looking for a few more cigarettes packs and still waiting on a friend to bring me a table......

Oops

It seems that I have neglected posting photos of my work recently as my adviser brought to my attention....  Okay, now I know that I am completely wiped out!  Here we go....
This one is of the rug that I started, tore apart and redid and still adding to at this point.

This is the last of the plates that I had made, which is representing the issues of molestation from my childhood, many of the others had similar images on them, but are probably not as close as to what I needed to create.  This is before the final firing.

I had to make a base to hold the sign from a few months ago, and this photo is while it is underway...  I could only add some at a time due to the epoxy having time to set.

These are the three paintings that I had to create based on the photos of myself in a reflection, while I was reflecting on my life....

This photo is the family of four after I finished inserting the smaller pieces into the openings.  This last month I finished inserting the pieces, because I had set it aside for awhile to work on other projects.

Crunched

Just working myself to death in the real world to raise the $$$$$ to get back to school and not let my family down.  We have not even put up a tree this year, for the first time ever in my whole life.  I am feeling so very sad and alone this year trying to be so much...a teacher, sales person, mother, and a student!  I do not know how to get there and not let everyone down.  I am trying to get at least one thing for each of the kids, but this year is going to be nothing like the previous years.  Plus while I am in Boston, I am going to miss my oldest daughter's 16th birthday!!  Boy, do I feel like a jerk.  I am scheduled to work at Macy's every day next week including Christmas eve, and still do not know if I can raise enough $$ to go on.  In addition I am squeezing in some reading time to be ready for school!  The only benefit is that I am loosing weight, and staying so busy that I really appreciate a few minutes to actually just sit!

Exhausted

So very tired.....I keep meeting myself going and going.....I leave the house at 7:30 in the morning and return....14 hours later....  I think that my kids forgot who I was, because they actually did their chores today.  I have a guaranteed subbing job through Tuesday of next week, so now I need to reschedule my meeting with my mentor.  I have turned down work every time I have had meetings, but I can't afford to lose a solid 4 day stretch like that.  I have been reading the essays for my new semester in January....My goal is 1 a night, bits and pieces....

I still have things to get wrapped up before I can go......finishing touches you might say on some pieces....

1st day at Macys

Yes, today was my first regular day at Macys!  I think that I did pretty well at rolling with the punches.  The time went by very fast, and I had a great time talking with customers.  Tonight I stopped into the Marsh gallery at Herron for the "Material Muse" reception.  I had a good time talking to some of the other students along with Danielle Reide.  My only concern now is that I may not get a day off this week to just get in some studio work, besides my few hours each day.....Oh well...

Here is a bad photo of the painting that was based on the photos I took and posted last week......This is the first of a small group.

Need another Job

I got an interview for holiday help at Macys in Greenwood tomorrow.  I have no idea what I would be doing, but I guess at this point it doesn't matter as long as I can still get some studio time in. 
I started a painting...based on that photo that I took of the back porch which was a reflection, and at times, it is how I feel...blurry, not sure about what I am seeing...somewhat a hint of aloneness, solitude, the sublime.  I am working on this in layers of colors with only gradual shifts in colors. This one is small, only about a 16x20..roughly I didn't measure it.  This was an old stretched canvas that I had painted on before, but was not happy with the end result.
I also made a mold today of tree bark out of plaster.  I have plans on using it for the surface of a figure.
I got another 20 feet added to the rug...length that is not size....ha ha
I have been doing a great deal of introspection....why am I like what I am?  Did all of the past really twist me, or did it make me stronger, more resilient?  At my age, at this point in my life I have the courage to ask these questions, to take out my sword and face the demons.

Happy Birthday!

Yes, it is my birthday, and I had a full day of subbing at Hawthorne Elementary today.  Came home then went back out to grab something from the store.  I made a vegetarian lasagna and zucchini bread (no sugar and lowfat), but I ate more than enough.  By the time this was over with, it was 8 and I was beat...I turned into a stuffed vegetable.
I got a nice email from Hannah stating that my paper was good....thank God.....I always feel that they are terrible.  I have to look for jobs on a consistent basis, due to getting TANF.  It is not very much, and at this point I do not know where I am going to get the $$ to get back to school, or even pay for staying there.  We are struggling bad and it is making me nuts and feeling very closed in...not a creative atmosphere to be surrounded by at this time.
This week has flown by, and I don't know where and I want it back!!