Exhausted

So very tired.....I keep meeting myself going and going.....I leave the house at 7:30 in the morning and return....14 hours later....  I think that my kids forgot who I was, because they actually did their chores today.  I have a guaranteed subbing job through Tuesday of next week, so now I need to reschedule my meeting with my mentor.  I have turned down work every time I have had meetings, but I can't afford to lose a solid 4 day stretch like that.  I have been reading the essays for my new semester in January....My goal is 1 a night, bits and pieces....

I still have things to get wrapped up before I can go......finishing touches you might say on some pieces....

1st day at Macys

Yes, today was my first regular day at Macys!  I think that I did pretty well at rolling with the punches.  The time went by very fast, and I had a great time talking with customers.  Tonight I stopped into the Marsh gallery at Herron for the "Material Muse" reception.  I had a good time talking to some of the other students along with Danielle Reide.  My only concern now is that I may not get a day off this week to just get in some studio work, besides my few hours each day.....Oh well...

Here is a bad photo of the painting that was based on the photos I took and posted last week......This is the first of a small group.

Need another Job

I got an interview for holiday help at Macys in Greenwood tomorrow.  I have no idea what I would be doing, but I guess at this point it doesn't matter as long as I can still get some studio time in. 
I started a painting...based on that photo that I took of the back porch which was a reflection, and at times, it is how I feel...blurry, not sure about what I am seeing...somewhat a hint of aloneness, solitude, the sublime.  I am working on this in layers of colors with only gradual shifts in colors. This one is small, only about a 16x20..roughly I didn't measure it.  This was an old stretched canvas that I had painted on before, but was not happy with the end result.
I also made a mold today of tree bark out of plaster.  I have plans on using it for the surface of a figure.
I got another 20 feet added to the rug...length that is not size....ha ha
I have been doing a great deal of introspection....why am I like what I am?  Did all of the past really twist me, or did it make me stronger, more resilient?  At my age, at this point in my life I have the courage to ask these questions, to take out my sword and face the demons.

Happy Birthday!

Yes, it is my birthday, and I had a full day of subbing at Hawthorne Elementary today.  Came home then went back out to grab something from the store.  I made a vegetarian lasagna and zucchini bread (no sugar and lowfat), but I ate more than enough.  By the time this was over with, it was 8 and I was beat...I turned into a stuffed vegetable.
I got a nice email from Hannah stating that my paper was good....thank God.....I always feel that they are terrible.  I have to look for jobs on a consistent basis, due to getting TANF.  It is not very much, and at this point I do not know where I am going to get the $$ to get back to school, or even pay for staying there.  We are struggling bad and it is making me nuts and feeling very closed in...not a creative atmosphere to be surrounded by at this time.
This week has flown by, and I don't know where and I want it back!!

One of those weekends!

I really hate it when no matter how hard you try to get something to work...it doesn't!  I got my base made (plaster part poured) for my sign that I did months ago, but didn't make a base so that it could stand up.  Yes, I procrastinated....only because it was not the main idea of the piece.  I tried and tried to get the types of glues that I had on hand to work, but to no avail.  So that has to wait until I get paid again so that I can go get some epoxy that I have used before for ceramic piece assembly.  I did as much work on the rug as I could and it is slowly getting bigger, but it takes 3 bags for 3 feet of length, and I am out of brown ones again....Today, I started sewing together the circles pieces for my "Family of Four" piece that ...Yes I procrastinated again....  I got the main part done, and since this piece really was an odd ball from the other stuff that I was making, I put it aside for a little while.  I did find a chair for my vignette that goes with my quilt!!  Yeah!!

I am ready to do some painting experiments based on a picture I took...a little on the sublime side, but it is fitting to my moods at times, very true to my life.  I feel that I am running out of time, and I have thoughts that I am trying to work out.  UGH!